No Reason to Dream
As we were sitting at the tables during our march Cultivate Her event and we were all talking about dreams we had as children, I realized that I didn’t have many.
I was a rule follower and I really felt like the plan for my life had been laid out for me..no reason to dream. I know it’s pretty sad.
The people around me growing up didn’t do this on purpose; they just really saw potential in me that didn’t resonate with my heart. When I tell my friends and family from childhood that I have a new dream or that I am quitting something in order to pursue what I really have big dreams for, I get scared out of my mind. I am so afraid they will be disappointed in me because their dream wasn’t my dream or because I had pursued a path that someone laid out for me and came to realize that it wasn’t my dream but theirs I was pursuing.
So when I got home to really dig into my Dream booklet I started to realize that I really do have dreams now. My dream now hasn’t fully formed but I am taking action on some big things in order for me to pursue my dream.
Last week I returned from a mission trip to the Dominican Republic with 14 Cross Point members with a confused look on my face. While I was there I didn’t feel a lot of direction on how I could really use my gifts, talents and resources to help the cause in the DR. The one thing I did feel was that whatever I was supposed to do was going to make me uncomfortable. So I went with that for a few days, and after more prayer realized that God was calling me to give something up. I hate giving up, and I also have a real issue with making success my Ultimate instead of my relationship with Christ. All of that coupled together caused me to realize that I was going to have to give up something in order to pursue my dreams, and, boy, was it going to be uncomfortable!
Since then I have really started to take action on this uncomfortable feeling, and I have talked to a few people that may be able to help me pursue my dreams. And most importantly, I have a game plan to give up what I need to in order to pursue my dreams.
Do you need to give something up to pursue your dream?
I too am a rule follower and I don't like to rock the boat. It wasn't until I was in my 20s that I realized I don't like strawberries. Because really who doesn't like strawberries?! I always assumed that I never found a good one.
Right now is a scary time for me, because I have a secret dream. I have been bit by the writing bug and I feel God is guiding me in this direction. I have been reluctant to share with people that it is more than just a hobby for me, or an outlet. I feel that this is a ministry God is calling me to and that's difficult to express.
Having a dream makes you vulnerable. It means you are believing that the impossible can become reality. It's putting your time and resources into something that doesn't have a guarantee. Thank you for sharing this and encouraging me in my dream!